Wow

Well I've been a little Lax about posting lately. I really hope I can get back into it.

Scott has been gone all weekend and its been really tough without him here. I've gotten so used to him taking care of me...so its been kind of difficult not having him here. He should be back around 11 pm tonight, so just a few hours. I'll be very glad to have him back.

I can't believe that I'm TWELVE WEEKS!
I remember when I first found out that I was pregnant and the doctor told me that 12 weeks was the time to shoot for. The risk would go down a lot at twelve weeks. I'm so happy. I'm a little late on updating this so I'm officially 12 weeks and four days now! WOWZA

I only have a bout a week and two days left before I'm OFFICIALLY in my second trimester. SO exciting!

Next week is Easter, So I'm excited to go home for that. I bought an easter dress when I first found out I was pregnant, so that seems like so long ago. I make all these plans and then when they finally come around, it seems like FOREVER ago that I made the plans. Sometimes I wonder if I ever really thought they would come.

I bought my first maternity clothes yesterday. Well my first official ones. I bought a pair of pants back when I was bloated, but I don't really wear them right now. Mom gave me a gift card to Old Navy so I got some stuff that was on sale the other day. I got two nice regular shirts, a tank top that has some pretty red flowers, and some shorts.

Well not too much to update past that. :) All is well here. I'm a little sore these past few days, I think that means I'm growing more!

Video!

Nebulizer

Well an important thing to remember, is that late on Saturday night, I went into the Emergency Room. I was not excited about this trip, but in the end I was glad we went.

There is a new emergency center (St.Mary's) in Sun Prairie, and it was beautiful. I felt comfortable, and unafraid. Everyone was so nice and attentive. They were also very very quick! :) I was, I believe, one of two people there at that point. I think we were in and out in less than thirty minutes.

I had been very sick this last week, and on Friday (and possibly Saturday) had a fever too. With the stuffy nose and drainage, I was having a lot of trouble breathing. It got to the point where I really felt light headed and very dizzy when I would move or stand up. I got scared and told my mom more about it, who then called the nurse on call.

I was lucky, because sometimes, though helpful, some of the staff at the nurse on call centers, are not so ... comforting. They are very knowledgeable and helpful, however not so comforting. Which is really something that I need being 11 weeks pregnant (at times) (this is why I love my new doctor's office and her nurses (more about that soon I hope!!)) Well I got to talk to a very nice woman, and when I got really upset and started crying, because I was worried this was hurting my baby, she was very nice about it and didn't get annoyed, or even seem that way. She said that I should come in to be seen at the ER.

So we headed off and when we got there, I got to lay down in one of the nice new rooms. They took my temp (normal) blood pressure (good) and pulse. They listened to my lungs, and they sounded fine as well; which was a relief. I was worried, with my history, that I might have pneumonia or something. Thank goodness that wasn't it, just a cold with a lot of drainage.

So they gave me a Nebulizer treatment to help open up my airways and help me breathe deeper. I had to breathe in and out on the machine for ten minutes ish. It sucked because it was like using an inhaler for ten minutes straight, and I never liked the way the medicine in the inhalers tasted! But this helped a lot, so I was happy.

Scott and my mom went with me to the Emergency room. I was so happy Scott went, because when they first were checking me out, they checked the baby's heartbeat. Scott hadn't heard it yet (at least not first hand (just on a recorded video)) and it was great that he could! Then, after I finished the nebulizer, and they decided to prescribe me an inhaler, I asked if we could hear the heartbeat one more time, with my mom in the room.

At first, she was was calling my brother while we were looking for the heartbeat, so I was getting really P/Oed at her! But after I yelled her, she knocked it off, and we got the LOUDEST heartbeat reading yet! It was a strong one! So great!

Week 12 is when my uterus will really start to rise above my pelvic bone, so I'm sure we will be getting more of those beautiful strong heartbeats!! Its such an amazing sound that I just LOVE to hear more than anything!

The inhaler has been helping a lot too. I definitely notice a difference in my breathing. I'm coughing a lot lately, but its more because I just get these tickles in my throat that won't go away. I had a cough like this before I even got sick. I think it might be a side affect to my pregnancy. Its annoying but...I'm glad to be feeling better!

Today

Sorry I have no words as to describe this day. Except for what it is, today.
Today is pretty ordinary.
Today I am feeling better than the day before.
Today I am a little stressed.
Today I am trying to decide whether or not to take my citalopram.
Today we arrived back in Green Bay.
Today I read a lot.
Today I am writing in my blog again after a pretty long break.
Today I am relaxing.
Today I worked for the first time in a week.
Today I am tired.
Today I cannot sleep.
Today I am still annoyed that regardless of the fact that I am very tired, I cannot sleep.
Today I am happy that it is today.
Today I am happy to realize that I am one day closer to October 6th!
Today I promise, to myself, that I will get back into the swing of things with this blog.


Today...is just another day.
Today is NOT just another day.....

11 weeks!

HOLY SMOKES! 11 weeks...WOW
I'm almost out of the first trimester...
my first trimester lasts until March 30th. WOW! Like two weeks! I can't believe it! SO happy!
Dr. Ranum told me that the risks from here, for miscarriage, are as low as they get. He said that the heartbeat was strong.

I'm so happy.

WOW ELEVEN WEEKS!

Right now I'm doing a lot of thinking. Thinking about cleaning out the closets to make more storage in the house. Thinking about baby stuff. Thinking about baby showers. Thinking about if its a boy or a girl. Thinking about cars. Thinking about moving.

So much to think about. But its all happy stuff. I talked to Ben about possibly switching cars. He has a four door Honda which will be SO much easier to get a car seat in, rather than my little two door toyota.

wow. I can't even believe that it is baby bean's 11 week birthday today! WOWZA!

Heartbeat

Monday was the most amazing day of my life ... ever. At least in the top five...actually top three.
It was perfect.
I was so scared as of lately..
and when he pulled out that little doppler...
and put it to my stomach...
and gave me that ear piece...

God.
Words cannot describe it.

Its the most amazing...beautiful thing.

Especially after all the scary things I've read and the worries I've had.

I don't even want to think about those things anymore...all I want to remember are the beautiful whooshing sounds that I heard.

with the ear pieces in...it was like it was a beautiful sound meant just for me. It was like a little secret that only I could hear.
It became SO real in that moment.

It is definitely something I will remember for the REST of my life.
God it was amazing.

I can't even describe it. If its something that you've never heard then you cannot describe it and just reading my words cannot truly help you to understand.
Its definitely one of the most amazing experiences.
To know that I am housing that beautiful thing. To know that I was picked to carry it and bring it into the world. god....amazing.


wow.
I can't wait till my next appointment, on Friday, so that I can hopefully get a recording of the heartbeat.
Its amazing. And I want to share with everyone. I'm sad that I didn't get to share it with Scott, but I can't wait for him to hear it. Its so real then. So real. So beautiful. So amazing.

Keeping busy

I'm doing my best to keep distracted these days.
Last night, Scott and I went out to a Japanese Hibachi restaurant in Green Bay called Nakashimas. It was a lot of fun and we just got to relax and enjoy it.
The food was very good too.
Then we just relaxed the rest of the night. Here are some picture updates :) :

Yummy, natural Breyer's ice cream :)! Strawberry, a nice spring flavor!

Cutie pie :)

Ruby! Aw :)

Its hard to take a picture of Josie. Or get many, she just moves so much! I have about thirty that just weren't good! and I got this one!

Smooches!

Oh and this one of Josie is fun too!

and of course this is how ruby plays. Mostly watching from the sidelines! :)