10 Weeks!

Wow. Officially double digits! Can you believe it?
I can't! Well..I can but I can't. Sometimes I feel like it has been FOREVER. and other times I feel like its all just started. Other times I feel like it is zooming by! I can believe that only a few weeks ago I was only 8 weeks or 6. I don't know, some times it is overwhelming, but most of the time, its pretty awesome!

I love the idea of being pregnant, but its definitely not what I thought it would be. I've been getting light headed lately, and get plenty of headaches. But the worries are constant and debilitating at times. I have always known that about the ONLY thing I want to do with my life, for sure, was be a mom. I always pictured being pregnant as an AMAZING experience. But its been a lot tougher than I expected. I've seen a lot of posts on babycenter lately about "when does the fear stop" or "constant worries." Its tough to read, at times, but then I realize that at least I'm not the only one. But then again, its tough to know that it won't go away. But I'm just trying to push it out of my mind and think about the positive things that I have going on!

Today I am 10 WEEKS! Double digits officially! Thats a great feeling! WOW! Yesterday, Monday, I told my Aunt Pat. I was so happy to tell her. I was scared at first, but I know that my Aunt Pat loves me SO much, and has ALWAYS supported me. She is such an amazing person, and I knew that she would be happy for me. I shouldn't have been scared at all, because she was happy. It felt nice to tell someone who I wasn't worried would get mad or sad or disappointed. I've decided the only people that I PERSONALLY will tell from now on, will be people who will be happy for me. If someone isn't going to be happy for me, then I'm not going to tell them! Someone else can! Haha! I don't need that stress! :P :)

Well, today Baby Bean is officially 10 weeks and is now called a "fetus." He/She is now about 1 inch long and weighs about 5 grams. I still feel like its a boy. But who knows! I honestly just do NOT care. All I want is a healthy happy baby! :)

Some more good news, Scott got a JOB!! I am SO freaking happy about this! He had applied, back in January, for a job with the US Census Bureau. He will be going out and about working with the census. He starts next week, which is the only bummer because that is our Spring Break and we had plans to go to Waunakee, he has training 8 hours a day, five days a week next week! Plus, the best part...he will start making $14.25 an hour!!!! That will be SO great! I'm so happy for him to start! I am very sad that I won't get to be with him the whole time during our spring break, but it was the perfect time for him to do the training because he doesn't have class at all that week, so nothing will interfere. This does mean I will have to go to the doctor's office all by myself, but I'm hoping I will have some great reports to call back home with! :) Another great thing, it lasts 8 weeks, which is perfect because we are moving the first week of June, so this way, he will work until the second to last week of May, then we will finish school, pack up, and ship out! :)

I'm so excited to go home this coming week. It will be a wonderful distraction from the stresses! Plus I have my doctor's appointment that I have been waiting for, for what feels like EVER! I'm SO excited. I'm PRAYING that I will get to hear Baby Bean's heartbeat! (It was tough to write "I" there, and not "we"...but its all for the best really) I'm so excited! A lot of people, on the forums, got to hear their heartbeat around 7-8 weeks, and I'll be 10 weeks and 5 days at the appointment on Monday, so I'm hoping that, even with my pudgy belly, I'll still get to hear SOMETHING!!! *prays*

PS It's raining outside. I love it so much! I can't see it, or really hear it, but I know its out there...and I love it! I can't wait for more snow to melt so that I can go on some walks and hang out at the park!