The "How We Found Out" Story!

Well, I have to say, we definitely were not expecting this, and we were definitely not trying! However, it is definitely one of the most amazing surprises! I have to say that I am very scared, but I know I have my amazing family, and a lot of friends, who I know are going to support me. My parents and Scott's family, are amazing right now. They are being very supportive and helpful at this time. Its a really stressful time for Scott and I, and it really helps to have parents and siblings that love you and will help you in the times you need it most.

SO here we go! The story you want to hear! :) :

Well, it was Thursday, February 11th. I had my first chiropractic appointment that morning, and went in early to fill out some paperwork. I had a lot of lower back problems and they wanted to do some x-rays of my back, so I had to fill out a form saying that I wasn't pregnant; and when my last menstrual cycle was. Well, I just couldn't sign the form, because I honestly didn't know. I knew that my last cycle had been late December. It was the second week in February, and I wasn't really worried that I didn't have my cycle yet, because I've always been kind of off and never remember. So I told them I couldn't do the x-rays.

We finished the initial appointment, but they really wanted the x-rays, so they asked me to go get a test, then come back in the afternoon for the x-rays. Well, I stopped by Walgreens on the way home and grabbed a test. I wasn't really thinking anything would come of it, I was nervous, but I do remember being excited that the tests were on sale! haha. :)

Well I went home and did the test, and I SWEAR, before I finished washing my hands, the thing flashed "pregnant."

I couldn't believe it! I had been late before, and it normally was stress. I was so scared, I freaked out and...(though I'm not happy that this is part of the story) I had a huge panic attack! I went into the living room and fell to the floor hypervenalating! Scott heard me and came running downstairs. He kept asking me "What's wrong?!" and I pointed to the test on the floor. He looked at it and hugged me saying " it's going to be alright." I know now that he was excited and scared.

All I could think about was telling my mom and dad. I wanted to do it RIGHT away, so I squeaked out "I need my phone." I called my mom every where that I could think of to possibly find her. Of course, being the crazy busy person she is, I couldn't find her anywhere. I left her a message and quickly called my dad. He answered and I told him "please don't get mad." and I told him. All he kept telling me was to just calm down and it would be okay. As I was talking to my dad, he helped calm me down a lot, my mom called back, and I was able to tell her. She told me to call the doctor and come home to go tonight. (we had already been planning on driving down that night after work.)

So I called the doctor, and we left immediately. As we drove, I barely talked. I was just so scared. What if this was all a mistake? What if the test was wrong? What if I couldn't do it? What if something went wrong? All Scott was thinking was "I wonder where I can get a Space Marine plush toy?" haha. I had to call into work, and we got to the doctor around 2:30. I took a test and it was confirmed, I was pregnant. So we had to answer a lot of questions about our health and such. I was worried because I had drank during the first weeks of my pregnancy. My doctor told me it wasn't too big of a deal because it was SO early, that unless I drank EVERYDAY, it wouldn't be that bad. And that if I stopped immediately, everything would be fine! Well I did! haha.

Then I had give them about half my blood, for a bunch of tests. They tested me for everything from HIV, to rabies! :-P Actually I had no idea what they were really testing me for! I just obliged and handed over what they wanted! Good thing too, because I found out later that I was pretty anemic (so was my mom during all her pregnancies) so I had to start taking iron supplements. Then we were scheduled for an ultrasound the next afternoon.

The night was still pretty stressful, just letting everything sink in. I'm so lucky to have my parents, they were so calm about everything. I think they knew that this was just as stressful of a time for me, without any added worries. I thanked my mom a lot for being so helpful and calm about everything. It really helped me more than I think they know.

The next days ultrasound seemed to take forever to come, and not JUST because I had to drink a million tons of water and hold it for what felt like HOURS! I had to have 32 oz. of water in my bladder by 2:30pm. Our appointment was at 3:30, so I had to hold it for an HOUR! Now, I have a small bladder to BEGIN with, PLUS I was pregnant! SERIOUSLY it SUCKED!! Especially on the ride there! Poor Scott, I got SO CRABBY because EVERY bump and fall hurt SO Bad, thats how bad I had to go to the bathroom! Seriously. Then when I got there, I had to wait for FOUR HOURS (aka 5 minutes). The Ultrasound Tech, called my name and said "I could tell it was you by the look on your face!" haha. FUNNY.

So when we got in the room, she tried to do the doppler test, which is the little gel and wand on your stomach, but she couldn't find anything. So...I got to go to the bathroom! and we did a T/V Ultrasound. The bathroom was so beautiful! But the most beautiful thing that I got to see that day was yet to come. When we started, I was worried because I felt like she wasn't finding anything. Apparently, she was just looking at my ovaries and measuring, and she said everything looked great. All I could think was, super but where is my baby?! Well....there it was. A little black spot, with a small white spot, and a flashing spot. Thats about all I can describe it as. If you've never had one or seen one...its something that really can't be described...especially because at first..I had NO clue what I was looking at!

Well, the big black area is the gestational sac. On the upper right part of the gestational sac, was a small white sac, called the yoc sac, which hold nutrients and stuff. Then (on the ultrasound picture) that gray part at the top, was our amazing, beautiful, wonderful, gorgeous baby!! Though, when we saw the screen, all I could really seen from where I was, was a flashing. Which was the heartbeat at a good 122 bpm. It was the most amazing thing I have ever seen. To know that I have another heart beating away inside of me...was inSANE! I couldn't believe it. I started crying, but I had to make myself stop pretty quick because I wanted to be able to see my little bean as long as I possibly could!

So we got a couple pictures of him/her, and were sent on our way! They said everything looked great.

Well that's pretty much the just of the story! :) The important stuff.

Its still a scary time because, as my doctor told me, 40% of pregnancies end in miscarriage. I had hope though because:

A.) I'm young. Between the ages of 16-25, your body WANTS to have a baby. It feels like it is MEANT to be having a baby and will try really hard to, so even if you're on the pill, like ME, you can still get pregnant.

B.) I'm "healthy." I have a healthy uterus and ovaries.

C.) I don't have a bad history of problems.

D.) Most miscarriages happen before women even know that they are pregnant.

and (the biggest one of all, for me that is) E.) Once you see your baby's heartbeat on the screen, your risk of miscarriage goes down to about 5%. We saw our beautiful baby's heartbeat on the screen at 6 weeks and 2 days! That's very early and a good sign.

I'm just holding on to what hope I have. Its hard these days, with all the hormones and my anxiety problems...but I'm doing what I can to stay strong for me and for , more importantly, our baby!